The Breaking Point

The point of no return...
The point of the end...
The point I am reaching...
The point i avoid...
I cant take the breaking point!

Yeah... I can't stand certain people anymore... I just want it all gone... Everything... I can't seems to get what I want anyways...

I just want it all gone... I want a life where I can be happy... one that I don't have to deal with assholes and contorting pricks...

Maybe I should become one. They always seem like they have the best luck anyways... well stoners and alcoholics seem to have good luck too...

I just don't understand why they do have the best luck...

I wish I could just for once get the think i want the most... will it ever happen thou... no... I'm not that lucky...

anyways...

so, im pretty sure no one likes to talk to me anymore... i guess i don't blame them. im excited thou. i get to go to the FFA National Convention!! I've never been there before. i have a bunch of homework thou... yuck. i miss three days of school thou!!! the play is suppose to be this weekend... i wonder how good it is going to be... not very im guessing. i found two really good local bands too!!! Jamestown Story and Sing It Loud. Sing It Loud opened for Motion City Soundtrack!

anyways... to end this all up... im depressed but excited at the same time... depressed no one likes to talk to me or hang out but excited about FFA!

start the ranting

so where to start.... well, for one, halo 3 came out! it completely rocks!! yeah. i was at bucks house playing it with him and tommy. i think thats about it for good news though. For all of u that don't know, i really hate being ignoring and not knowing why i am being ignored... I'm really worried about drama too... i feel like everything isn't planed out enough. I'm sure everything will work out though.
What kind of best friend doesnt ever want to talk to you? i just dont get it... i really dont...

school sucks...

Yes, back at freaking school, first day. It sucked enormous horse turds... drama isn't going well either... it seems like we should be still in the first week. i just hope we done look really bad at performance... for everyones sake. Everything has changed at school, including stricter rules, movement of teachers, and the lost of Little... I kinda think he got the better end of the stick thou. I'm sure he will find a good job soon. I wish i could help more thou... I'm not the only one to be thinking this either...

lovely... just lovely.

At least i know someone reads this. thank you. but right now, well, lets just say i feel like... well shit... and a bad streak of luck, again. honestly, i kinda feel like the only people that would miss me from drama would be buck, Nikki, Alisha and mike. i might be missing one or two... i have to come up with a bunch of money too now... i have no clue how even. i haven't got an answer from my interview yet. and some how i don't think I'm going to get it just because of my hours. well... this month has really gone down the shit hole...

hello?

...Is anyone out there? or should i get rid of an unread blog?

The old, depressing road....

well, it's on the single road again... i think it's going to be a long ride too. *sigh* depressing...

well, i hope she is happy. Considering partly because it seems like everyone wants her happy even if it hurts others...