What to do?

Why are people so dumb? How do people not see what could happen to them through their actions? I know somethings can't be seen, but when it is something that could majorly mess up your life, that is a different story, and if you know better.

I'm starting to feel more alone then what I have in a long time. I am still single, and even some of my friends say I need a girlfriend. It's not that easy for me to find one. My group of friends seem to be breaking into groups, and I'm in none of them, or few of them. Nothing like sitting at home doing nothing all the time. I'm going to have to listen to more music...

On a good note though, I got three of my certificates from college the other day, and they were all with honors. Don't know how I did that...

It"s been a long time...

I haven't wrote on here for a long time, so I figured I would. It's been almost a year since I last posted a post.
I am done with my first year of college, and with good grades too. My job is just as boring as ever, but I guess that is a good thing. I have the first weekend off in a long time. I plan on going to a bunch of grad parties this weekend.

I hate fighting loosing battles... Every girl I go after is just a nothing loosing battle. I have two girls that say they like me, but are too busy to ever hang out, and they both have boyfriends. There is one girl I have a chance with though. I'm just scared I'd mess it up like I normally do.

I just noticed I don't like to swear online anymore. I don't know why.

Come on people...

Okay people, this is getting ridiculous. Get the dick out of your ass and become your own person! Get a life and grow up...

Life sucks, and I'm living it...

what can I say? I've been boned over most of my whole life... There is always something wrong in my life... always... lately if happens to be female friends mostly. Every girl that I used to text all the time now either hates me or wants nothing to do with me. Even the ones I used to call are the same way. They never call, and when I call them, they don't answer or call back... Part of me wants to go back a year when everything was better, the other part doesn't care about almost anything anymore... Is it that I've been hurt enough that I can't feel it anymore, or what? I've telling some people this and only one has listened but... I'm an asshole... It partly bothers me, but on the other hand, I could care less... Most people boned me over so why care about them?

I think all of this is teaching me about why people do the things they do, and why people get into fights... Most people act fake somehow or another...

Life, It Doesn't Work...

Well, life blows... it's really bad when everything seems to go wrong and people, females that used to talk to me all the time, stop talking to me and wont even tell my why they stopped talking to me.
When the only girl that likes you is an hour away and isn't the best, somethings wrong.
Best friends... aren't they just wonderful... the way they talk to you all the time then, all of a sudden, decided that you aren't worth their time and stop talking to you and your left without a best friend... I love it... almost every best friend I have had has done just that...
What is the point of having a myspace if no one messages, or comments you?

Well, I think I'm done talking, no one seemed to want to listen to me rant so I put here so everyone can read it... *mutters* "although I doubt anyone will"

Nothing like a good slap in the face!

Well... had solo ensemble yesterday for choir... Men's did awesome... 39 out of 40... my first and only superior. My solo on the other had was, like I said, a slap in the face... i got a 23 out of 40... a good... a FUCKING GOOD!!! What the hell? I don't think she was even listening to me sing... Yeah, I know I'm not suppose to dwell on it... but how can you get over that quick? Gez....

Good news thought, I will be trained in upstairs at work before summer, and I have a prom date now... Tori Anne.

Well, I guess I'll try and get over this damn slap in the face... there is more too by the way but some of it I don't want to say to everyone.

what do i do?

well, i dont know what to do anymore... i feel like crap right now... i have no one to go to prom with cuz everyone i have asked said no... and that has been about 6 or 7 people... the person i want to go with most doesnt want to go with me becuz she thinks i wont have fun... the thing is, if she went with me, i would have the most fun ever...
my hand really hurts, cuz... well, im a moron... burned my hand...

What do u do when no one else wants u? what do u do?

I Stand Alone....

And not by choice... i stand alone because everyone basically stops caring and stops talking to me... or is two faced... so... I'm basically forced to stand alone, by myself... that's the truth... and, well, I don't know what to do about it.

Favorite Quotes

"I will never let you fall.
I'll stand up with you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
Even if saving you sends me to heaven"

"Am I supposed to be happy?
with all I ever wanted, it comes with a price.
You said that you would die for me...
You must live for me too..."

"I will walk with you through hell,
I'll support you when you fall down"

2008

well, almost in to February and it's been over a month sense i wrote in here. Basically, this last month has not been that great... between my job, friends, school, and death...
my job, it well, is a shit hole. i work with morons that don't do their jobs... my boss tries to get me to work when i cant...
friends... aren't they wonderful? don't u hate them when they make things up? ugh...
well, i only have half a year left of school... idk if thats good or bad... Fosey is back thou, long over due.
On Thursday, January 24, 2008... a 06 senior died... not cool... she will be missed!!!! RIP Cheryl Lynn Tri.

Well, i finally got drums, i think thats the best thing that has happened... a nice set at half price. I'm happy and broke... thats basically it... I'm staying away from the conversion about girls for now.

well...lonelyness

hello everybody!
basically, i don't know what to say but i haven't posted in over a month so i thought i would.

well, my fish died today... sadly... now i just have an empty bowl of water in my room.
yep, no one likes me. i have few friends but my friend tend to fight... it's annoying.

basically, when i have a friend thats getting treated like crap, yeah im going to stand up to them even if my friend wont. Good friends do that.

i haven't worked at Galaxy for that last two weeks now... i haven't got any hours! damn it. No hours and im working two jobs. wth!

i guess that's it. no one wants to read it anyways.

The Breaking Point

The point of no return...
The point of the end...
The point I am reaching...
The point i avoid...
I cant take the breaking point!

Yeah... I can't stand certain people anymore... I just want it all gone... Everything... I can't seems to get what I want anyways...

I just want it all gone... I want a life where I can be happy... one that I don't have to deal with assholes and contorting pricks...

Maybe I should become one. They always seem like they have the best luck anyways... well stoners and alcoholics seem to have good luck too...

I just don't understand why they do have the best luck...

I wish I could just for once get the think i want the most... will it ever happen thou... no... I'm not that lucky...

anyways...

so, im pretty sure no one likes to talk to me anymore... i guess i don't blame them. im excited thou. i get to go to the FFA National Convention!! I've never been there before. i have a bunch of homework thou... yuck. i miss three days of school thou!!! the play is suppose to be this weekend... i wonder how good it is going to be... not very im guessing. i found two really good local bands too!!! Jamestown Story and Sing It Loud. Sing It Loud opened for Motion City Soundtrack!

anyways... to end this all up... im depressed but excited at the same time... depressed no one likes to talk to me or hang out but excited about FFA!

start the ranting

so where to start.... well, for one, halo 3 came out! it completely rocks!! yeah. i was at bucks house playing it with him and tommy. i think thats about it for good news though. For all of u that don't know, i really hate being ignoring and not knowing why i am being ignored... I'm really worried about drama too... i feel like everything isn't planed out enough. I'm sure everything will work out though.
What kind of best friend doesnt ever want to talk to you? i just dont get it... i really dont...

school sucks...

Yes, back at freaking school, first day. It sucked enormous horse turds... drama isn't going well either... it seems like we should be still in the first week. i just hope we done look really bad at performance... for everyones sake. Everything has changed at school, including stricter rules, movement of teachers, and the lost of Little... I kinda think he got the better end of the stick thou. I'm sure he will find a good job soon. I wish i could help more thou... I'm not the only one to be thinking this either...

lovely... just lovely.

At least i know someone reads this. thank you. but right now, well, lets just say i feel like... well shit... and a bad streak of luck, again. honestly, i kinda feel like the only people that would miss me from drama would be buck, Nikki, Alisha and mike. i might be missing one or two... i have to come up with a bunch of money too now... i have no clue how even. i haven't got an answer from my interview yet. and some how i don't think I'm going to get it just because of my hours. well... this month has really gone down the shit hole...

hello?

...Is anyone out there? or should i get rid of an unread blog?

The old, depressing road....

well, it's on the single road again... i think it's going to be a long ride too. *sigh* depressing...

well, i hope she is happy. Considering partly because it seems like everyone wants her happy even if it hurts others...

Don't blame troops for war...

You stay up for 16 hours
He stays up for days on end.

You take a warm shower to help you wake up.
He goes days or weeks without running water.


You complain of a "headache", and call in sick.
He gets shot at as others are hit, and keeps moving forward.

You put on your anti war/don't support the troops shirt, and go meet up with your friends.
He still fights for your right to wear that shirt.

You make sure you're cell phone is in your pocket.
He clutches the cross hanging on his chain next to his dog tags.

You talk trash about your "buddies" that aren't with you.
He knows he may not see some of his buddies again.

You walk down the beach, staring at all the pretty girls.
He patrols the streets, searching for insurgents and terrorists.

You complain about how hot it is.
He wears his heavy gear, not daring to take off his helmet to wipe his brow.

You go out to lunch, and complain because the restaurant got your order wrong.
He doesn't get to eat today.

Your maid makes your bed and washes your clothes.
He wears the same things for weeks, but makes sure his weapons are clean.

You go to the mall and get your hair redone.
He doesn't have time to brush his teeth today.

You're angry because your class ran 5 minutes over.
He's told he will be held over an extra 2 months.

You call your girlfriend and set a date for tonight.
He waits for the mail to see if there is a letter from home.

You hug and kiss your girlfriend, like you do everyday.
He holds his letter close and smells his Love's perfume.

You roll your eyes as a baby cries.
He gets a letter with pictures of his new child, and wonders if they'll ever meet.

You criticize your government, and say that war never solves anything.
He sees the innocent tortured and killed by their own people and remembers why he is fighting.

You hear the jokes about the war, and make fun of men like him.
He hears the gunfire, bombs and screams of the wounded.

You see only what the media wants you to see.
He sees the broken bodies lying around him.

You are asked to go to the store by your parents. You don't.
He does exactly what he is told even if it puts his life in danger.

You stay at home and watch TV.
He takes whatever time he is given to call, write home, sleep, and eat.

You crawl into your soft bed, with down pillows, and get comfortable.
He tries to sleep but gets woken by mortars and helicopters all night long.

Being Helpful. part 2

You know... as bad as I may get treated... and as much as it seems like I stand alone... I don't, nor does anyone else. I mey get treated like crap, but I'm still going to be there when someone calls for help.