Friday, March 30, 2007


life= pain?
life= rejection?
life= death?
life= heartbreak?
life= lonliness?

Most of the time i can say that life does not equal those, but everyone of those has been strongly around me lately...
most of the time:

life= friends
life= music
life= love
life= fun

so... where is that most of the time? im not real sure. I do know that this rejection crap needs to go now. There seems to be no way around it but through it.

Thursday, March 29, 2007


1 depressed mood
2 decreased interest or pleasure
3 weight changes
4 sleep disturbances
5 physical agitation
6 fatigue
7 feelings of worthlessness or guilt
8 "brain fog"
9 thoughts of death
you may ask why I'm saying this, but it has a point. why is this week so bad? i think I'm done with trying to find someone; there isn't somebody for everybody. i cant believe that after the most romantic thing i have ever done that the person is acting like she is. oh well...

Monday, March 26, 2007

yay... kinda

yeah... today wasn't to good of a day. i was depressed the whole day... well until i talked to Kassie right before i left... (this is an awesome song, "you are the women i love" from Gentry Bronson.) I get to have a fun week at work after school everyday but Friday. I don't know why i am, but I'm really happy right now and i figured i didn't have anything better to do so id write a post. i know the person i want to see this wont, but if your a bf and u don't treat your girlfriend like she should be treated then stop going out with her. -(they dint have a blog). anyways, that's all i have to say for right now so...

Love y'all,

Saturday, March 3, 2007

lost in translation

I want to make a peom but i just can't think the vest right now so i'll just write.

well.... I love it how I can f' everything up, I'm not sure how I always do it, but I do. yeah, I say one thing, and you take it another way is what most of the time what happens. And I love it how I can wait for two weeks to be at work at one time when only three hours before he changes it. ugg... I'm I suppost to be somewhere? Not one single person is online right now... where is everyone or is it just that i get left out of everything? I dont know...